5 minute poetry

[Packman]

This is wrote for a special woman. She knows who she is, and will understand this better than anyone else. Its also the first personal poetry I've ever shown publicly, I wrote it just for her.

My cheeks are flush my thoughts are gone.
This is what I've wanted all along.
Love is such a strong word; yet, you use it freely
God is love to me you see, dont ask me to blashpheme!
Since the start, I've played the part, that my sould doth deem me.
Yet to you I seem so true, with words from my heart bleeding.
Nothing more, yet nothing less, am I than what you dream me.
Still my soul, beyond control, demands that I persue.
An evil curse!! What makes it worse is that I can not love you.
And even fate can berate! My resistance to,
what I know in heart and soul, is meant to be love true.
My stupid mind against love kind would with logic fight for me.
Yet, its known that love has shown how it conquers all.
What am I to dare to try resistance to my God?
I still don't know which way to go, so I will follow God.
And if Love leads me to your arms, hold you tight I will!
But if another path he takes I will follow so, ever quiet still.

This is the rough draft without any editing. Its not perfect, but it best conveys the meaning I want to express. I doubt I'll ever post an edited version.

It means I should love you even though we cant. We do not determine our hearts, only what actions we take with the emotions we are given. I hope you see past impossibility, and realize like I have that anything is possible, especially if love is involved. I know current relationships are in the way. Yet, if you know its not true love, and you know I could be then make your decision accordingly. A good friend of mine was philosphizing with me today for the first time, he was very good at it. I came to a realization that this is my life and I determine the outcome, even if I cant see it. I would risk heartbreak again for the glory of love. Hopeless love is a foolish proposition though. I will not take that risk, without someone else whose willing to make the trip with me. Tell me as soon as you know. If you do not, or can not decide then at least tell me you've read this.