Pok?mon Umbral Discussion 10: PvPing Inside and Outside the RP

[Geminex]

Ok, rage is under control.
I guess I shoulda seen this coming.

But dammit, I've been putting effort into this. All those times when Impact "restrained himself" or quieted the "insidious voice"? All those times when he feigned worry, or chose not to put his teammates in danger? All those times (and I haven't counted, but it feels like every second post) I made him do that? Yeah. Wonder why. Hell, everything I had planned for my demonic upgrades was political in the long term, but really focused on him leading in the short term.

And sure, if there's a sequel, Impact'll be the antagonist. And that's fucking awesome. But I'm 90% sure that I won't be playing Impact. Uni starts for me in October, and while I'll see this through to the end, I will not be making the commitment of joining that one, if only for reasons of time. I'm really happy to have him included in the sequel, mind you. But that'll be Impact. This'll be me. And yes, I do take these things far too personally, but that's what keeps me motivated.

Another... factor is that you had Rayleen decide on a leader at all. You seemed fairly determined to grant people their autonomy so far! I mean yes, Renny and me got to lead last mission, but I was under the impression that that was temporary that, the rest of the team'd get their chance in the following mission, we'd all prove ourselves, and that we'd decide then.

And really, that's what annoys me most. We didn't get to choose. The reason I had Impact put all that effort into getting into everyone's good books, the reason I plotted how to best get charlotte on my side, tried to make deals with drac, tried to seem kind and human to Renny, was that I had assumed that their support would be necessary for Impact to be leader. Now being told that the Character with the least experience and really, for all that hugging, not much likability, is boss and that's that? No consulting with us? He didn't have to put any effort in? The only thing he has going for him is he had shown competence, and Pierce and Impact have that as well.

And finally, I really don't know what Impact's reaction to this would be. The most IC thing I can think of is that while everyone else is at the party, he'll place a proximity mine in Renny's locker, pay a hitman to dispatch Rayleen, raid the armory and quit the watchmen, and, most likely, Homnyr.

Won't do that, of course, but seriously, what's he supposed to do? He's livid, that's for sure. The most logical course of action right now would be that he goes directly to the Kimonos, and asks if he can work with them on this project. That'd put him outside Renny's influence, still allow him to fight the threat and give him the opportunity of gaining demonic power.

To clarify, I'm not pissed that Renny got leader. If he'd outmaneuvered Impact, outfought him, gained everyone's favor and proven himself to be a better tactician, if he'd qualified himself for leadership, and really earned this, I'd have absolutely no problem. Impact would, but I wouldn't. But like I said, I've put effort into this, Impact certainly has, and now to learn that he really didn't have a chance, that annoys me. I'm not demanding that Impact be made leader instead of Renny, that'd just be a dick-move. But if every player were at the very least given a chance, that'd be nice.

Yes, it is incredibly juvenile, debating this, and I guess it does show that I place far too much emphasis on this RP. But, for now, I'm still rather pissed. I might sleep it off, might not. We'll see, I guess. ^^

TL;DR:

Says it all. ^^