08-28-2007, 11:07 PM | #1 |
Erotic Esquire
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Loneliness
DISCLAIMER: No, I'm not depressed, and no, I sure as hell ain't suicidal. I know when it comes to topics on loneliness that seems the popular conjecture to make, but the irony of it all is that from a certain perspective my life has never been better. I'm working a stable job for an organization that I love, I live in a decent apartment with a respectful roommate, and I live in the vicinity of a great city. I even have a good deal of "friends," but few I'd label close confidants.
Disclaimers aside, I've created this topic because lately I can't shake this feeling of feeling miserably lonely. It probably has something to do with the fact that I recently moved 20 minutes outside the city and 40 minutes away from my old college campus, where most of my old friends live, and which I rarely have time to visit anymore. It may also have to do with the fact that there's no woman I know of that I'm terribly attracted to at the moment, and that's true for the first time in a long time. I'm not the type who enjoys dating (or even meeting) strangers, so the fact that I'm no longer interested in the women I do know is a bad sign in regards to my dating life. For whatever reason, I can't shake the feeling that I'm really alone right now in my life -- minimal support from family (they're too far away to visit or anything), only the customary superficial support from most of my friends, grudging respect at best from my coworkers. It's like I've just realized that I'm fighting this battle by myself, struggling just to keep afloat of things, and though I don't terribly mind, sometimes I just wish someone else was rooting for me. Meanwhile, my friends who are still in college are still in their social bubbles, experiencing the constant euphoria of being around their community. I miss the feeling, somewhat. I know it was deceptive and fake, but that notion that I was around people I could talk to at anytime and hang out with for any reason...yeah. That was fun. Is there anything I can do about these feelings? And, how do you combat loneliness at certain times in your life?
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